The truth is I’m scared
And you’re the only thing that can comfort me
I reach out to you despite
The years and years of nothing in between
And when you won’t look my way?
Like I’m still nothing in the background of everyone else you otherwise look to?
I stay scared, I stay angry
I stay alone
Because the truth is it’s you, always you, only you
and without you I’m alone
And suddenly I’m back
Five, six, seven years, gone
Wondering what I did wrong and what I can do now
To just make them like me enough to continue the routine of relationship
But no!
Its distance and it’s change and it’s nonsensical to me
And it’s always nonsensical to
me